About a month ago I interviewed for a position at Skyview High School in Nampa, Idaho. The interview went well until the last few minutes. They started explaining the job and what grades I would be teaching. I think my jaw probably hit the floor. I would be teaching 4 IEP classes grades 9-12, an advanced 11th grade class, and an advanced 12th grade class. That is A LOT of work. I felt uneasy about it but thought a job is a job no matter what type of job it is.
A few days after the interview I got a call from the principal extending me the job. I had mixed emotions about taking the job but took it because like I said, a job is a job right now (especially for teachers). A couple of weeks went by and I still had a knot in my stomach about taking the job. I thought it was just nerves, but no matter what happened I could not stop thinking about if I had made the right decision.
One night I had a complete breakdown. I prayed for a job and got a job... so why was I feeling so awful? I don't even know if I can even answer this now. Trials make us stronger, and learning how to align our will with Heavenly Father's will is obviously a big struggle for me :) I got the answer that this job was not what I was supposed to be doing at this time. Yes, I wanted more than anything to get a teaching job. But my Heavenly Father knows much better than me what is BEST for me RIGHT NOW. So I am heading onto plan B with lots of faith this time:) To tell you the truth I don't even know what plan B holds, but I do know someone who knows what plan B holds and that is good enough for me.
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Hang in there Kayla. After my first teaching interview, I actually went home and prayed I WOULDN'T get it, I had such knots in my stomach about it. And the next day, the principal called and told me they narrowed it down to me and another person, and they were going to give it to the other person. He was feeling bad, and I was feeling relieved! Then I got the best job ever a few months later. So don't worry! You'll know when the right one comes along. Besides, if I would have had a class load like your's at Skyview when I was a first year teacher, I probably would have quit after one year. I'm actually surprised they would give all that to you, being a 1st year teacher. Good luck on your job search! Things happen for a reason. :)
Thank you so much Nicole. That is exactly what I needed to hear :)
good luck Kayla!! All will work out! We will pray for you. Isn't it just wonderful that we know that we have a Heavenly Father who loves us and helps us in our life and knows what is best for us? Without that knowledge this decision would be very difficult. I am proud of you and cannot wait to see what Plan B is:)
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